OHMYGOSSIP — Joey Essex thinks the grief of losing his mum has stopped him from finding love.
The 30-year-old TV star has revealed he pushes girls away because he doesn’t want to lose them like he lost his mum, who took her own life in 2001.
Joey – who has turned to therapy to help deal with his issues – said: “My mum loved me, but she left me. I just think to myself: if she loved me that much, why would she leave me?
“I’ve had loads of relationships but I always end up pushing them away.
“Imagine if I was with someone and I had kids with them and I really did love that person and then she left me. I wouldn’t know what to do. I’m already thinking we’re gonna break up before we’re together. I’m pushing it away.
“I’ve gone from being a big party boy going out. Now I genuinely do want a family. I want to find true love.
“I think that my life has been too painful for that person to be with. Because I don’t put them through what I’ve been through.
“I know I need to change things now so I’ve decided to look for help.”
Joey – who has previously dated the likes of Sam Faiers and Lorena Medina – admits he’s constantly searching for happiness.
The TV star – who discusses his concerns in a new BBC Three documentary – shared: “I remember the time when I used to wake up screaming ‘Tell mum I love her.’ I used to … now it’s come back to me. I used to just repeat it – I’d panic and go crazy. That’s why I’ve got these habits of spending money and getting rid of it.”
Joey confessed he’s still trying to plug the gap that exists in his life.
He said, according to The Sun newspaper: “I’m trying to fill a gap. I’ve tried everything, I’ve done everything. Nothing seems to make me happy.
“Everything I’ve achieved in life, who have I got to prove it to? No one. I would throw everything away to spend one hour with her. I want to be one of those people that says, ‘This therapy changed my life.’ ”
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